Countless hours of worrying, wondering, thinking, debating, hoping, praying, writing…spent on you. Us. Worrying that I’d made a mistake. Wondering if we were really meant. Thinking that it would work out with time. Debating on how long I should hold on. Hoping you’d come around. Praying for a sign as to what I should do. [...]
I don’t live here anymore!
Once again, if you didn’t know I thought this show IS life, you don’t know me. Moving on, I feel this scene. This scene is so my life. Wanting to move on and wanting to be done, moving on two different timelines …He’s ready you’re not-you’re ready he’s not…and trying to [...]
Bible Music
So, as if we didn’t know music brings people together. Some songs unite us in joy, some in pain. Lauryn Hill’s Ex-Factor is the song that unites us in pain. I seriously can’t think of a.n.y.b.o.d.y who after going through a serious break up doesn’t think every single word in this song was about them [...]
Heart Splinters
So yesterday I was sick all day-couldn’t keep food down, couldn’t find energy to do much more than sleep. What a Christmas right? I managed to do some laundry and answer a few phone calls…and then last night around ten I cracked open Twi.light and got to reading. I understand now what KaNisa meant, its [...]
roots
So today I travelled into the city with my mom and sister, we attended a Christmas Cantata (a composition for one or more voices usually comprising solos, duets, recitatives, and choruses and sung to an instrumental accompaniment) at my Grandmother’s church…which was a whole mess including, but not limited to the Rev. saying ‘what you [...]
Weddings, Babies, and lots of T.O.N.Y
First, congrats to my dear friend MC who got married over the weekend!!! Cappy, I wish you all the best because you’re such a sweetheart and deserve only good things and happiness! xoxo Oh, and shout out to his wife for the fly Louboutin’s!!!
Next, my super good friend L had a baby!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Today at 6:05 [...]
Hater of lov.E
I really wonder if we ever get over our first loves. Do they stay in our hearts forever because that is the first time we’re opened ourselves up to the possibility of something wonderful? Many times its no one’s fault you drift apart, things change, people change etc. Its circumstantial…and the first cut is the [...]
Music of my heart
Just a few song lyrics that say it all…
Artist: Michelle Featherstone
Song: Coffee & Cigarettes
I gave up coffee and cigarettes
I hate to say it hasn’t helped me yet
I thought my problems would just dissipate
And all my pain would be in yesterday
I poured my booze all down the kitchen drain
And watched my bad habits get flushed away
I [...]
Mediums
There has to be a medium between what feels good and what is good. There has to be some person out there who is the perfect blend of what you want and what you need. I lack the strength to choose between my heart and my head and I’m waiting on the universe to make [...]
