Who am i?
I am the singer who cannot sing
words caught somewhere between my mind and my throat
trapped in the prison of my being
desperate to escape
desperate to express themselves
A tone deaf lyricist who yearns to be heard
who is destined to revolutionize
inspire and catalyze the generations yet to come.
I am the artist who cannot paint
and not for wanting, filled to the brim with genius
but whose colors always come out brown.
The owner of canvas, and easels,
oils and paints
charcoal and sketch pads empty and stacked in a corner.
With art spilling from my fingertips leaving stains on my keyboard
and remnants of me on everything I touch.
I am the actor too absorbed in herself to portray a character.
Like a genie to his master
I am a slave to the written word.
I am a poet.
I am communication.
I am yearning
I am the said and the unsaid.
The thought and the plight.
I am the the circle with no beginning
a walking contradiction
synecdoche of being…
I am life.
I am death.
I am love and loss.
I am everything at once,
and nothing at all.
My List of 101 things to complete in 1001 days, started on 1/1/2008
- Go to Italy
- Go to Greece
- Go to the Grand Canyon
- Go to Las Vegas
- Sell a photograph
- Buy a camera with money made solely from working
- Run a 5k
- Go to Washington, D.C.
- Go to a Falcons game
- Buy an Apple laptop
- Eliminate credit card debt
- Get accepted into a Graduate school Photography program
- Obtain my Masters degree
- Learn to speak Spanish fluently
- Own two pair of Burberry pajamas
- Own a pair of Jimmy Choo putty colored heels
- Own a pair of Christian Louboutin heels
- Learn to play tennis
- Learn the art of wine-tasting
- Begin to learn French
- Continue studying Sign Language
- Continue studying Italian
- Spend New Year’s Eve on vacation
- Run everyday for a month
- Run everyday for 2 months
- Run everyday for 6 months
- Become a UT season ticket holder
- Travel to a Vols away game
- Get my own apartment
- Get my own condo
- Buy my own car
- Keep my hair regularly trimmed and permed
- Get glasses
- Shoot a wedding
- Shoot a family
- Shoot a Graduate
- Spend Christmas away from home
- Keep a professional pedicure throughout winter
- Spend a day at the spa
- Volunteer to work with victims of domestic violence
- Volunteer to work with deaf children
- Attend a Howard Homecoming
- Start a 401K
- Get a professional website up and running
- Get business cards
- Go a month without McDonald’s
- Go 2 months without McDonald’s
- Go a month without fast food
- Go 2 months without fast food
- Attend a bridal expo (for professional reasons)
- Go to a Prince concert
- Own a receiver with surround sound
- Buy a projector
- Keep fresh flowers in my home for a month
- Own complete Harry Potter Hardback collection
- Take an alternative spring/summer/fall break
- Get off Facebook for a month
- Get off Facebook for 2 months
- Get a puppy
- Get an aquarium
- Learn FLASH
- Visit Hawaii
- Stay in a Four Seasons hotel
- See Wicked live
- See Aida live
- Send a postcard to Post Secret
- Vote in all 2008 presidential elections
- Have dinner alone
- Learn to play Poker
- Send Christmas cards of my own design
- Buy a full set of princess length pearls
- Buy diamond earrings
- Participate in Breast Cancer walk
- Ask a guy out on a date
- Drink water everyday for a month
- Wash off makeup and use moisturizer everyday for a month
- Work professionally in my field steadily
- Start taking a dance class
- Try strip-aerobics
- Visit museums in New York
- Go to an art gallery exhibition/opening
- Have a huge 25th birthday party
- Increase my credit score by 100 points
- Begin to write my book
- Do something nice for my step dad
- Do something nice for my mother
- Do something nice just with my sisters and I
- Do something nice just for Dresha and I
- End every personal phone call with I love you
- Support undiscovered jazz/neo-soul artists
- Attend UT game with entire family
- Wake up every weekday by 8 a.m.
- Take a cooking class
- STOP drinking and driving. Period.
- Blog more, its therapeutic
- Read a book a week for a month
- Take my sister to a UGA game
- Visit Colorado
- Dentist 2x a year
- Read the newspaper (for more than the Crossword puzzle)
- Go 6 months without over drafting my checking account
- Make a new 101 list on the eve of my 1001st day (Sept 9, 2010)
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Hello,
I totally love your list!
Great job on your list and your accomplishments. I make lists, too, but not that long.
Take dance classes. I did for a year and it has been great. Ballroom. Trust me you’ll have a lot of fun, just get a nice teacher.
I think you have inspired me to do something like this on my own blog.
Thanks and good luck!
Jess,
You inspire me to “use my words” lol, expand my mind and make my spirit limitless. I never thought that I could actually enjoy a blog as much as I enjoy jessj, but I honestly am glad that I’ve been introduced to you, your thoughts, dreams, words, creativity – your world. Continue to inspire my friend.
Hello,
My name is Brooke . I am currrently interning with Xposure Magazine. We are a diversity magazine in Tulsa, Ok. I saw a resent blog of yours talking about HBCUs. Have they outlasted their time? It would be great if you would be available for telephone interview.
Thank you!