So, I thought very sincerely about even writing this post…not everything should be made public after all. However, I think its interesting and it kind of sums up things that I’ve already described on here so here we go. I had lunch today with a few of my classmates and somehow we got on the topic of feeling other people’s energies. I spoke with one classmate/friend in specific, I’ll call her Nama (short for Namaste)…anyway Nama revealed to us that she was an Empath (an empath is someone who has the power to feel and manipulate the emotions of others. Empaths often have mood-swings, or are sometimes classified as bi-polar, but it’s simply the emotions of others around you. You are often one that people turn to for guidance, for your uncanny ability to make people feel better, to reduce their anger or depression. The bad side is that you tend to often feel other’s emotions and confuse them as your own, and act upon them accordingly, confusing and possibly scaring or angering others.) Make sense why I chose Jasper as my illustration now?
I will leave private Nama’s experiences, but instead continue with mine. So I go home and research this new word…this new being. I know that I sometimes feel drained, and sometimes cry and don’t know why. I will feel things very deeply and know that something is wrong or I will get just a bit sick when someone close to me is very sick. The thing that kind of drove it home to me was the fact that I read how Empaths want to take other people’s pain into themselves to heal. I broke down and cried (lol how appropriate right?) because I say that to Deeds all the time. I also tell him how I feel “inside out” because I’m so sensitive to everything, and how I wish I had a pensieve (read: Harry Potter) just so I could clear my head and just get everything out of me. More recently I’ve been so incredibly drained by things, I even complain when I go to the grocery store. I’m not sure if anyone else has ever felt like this but…its like you literally can feel other people inside you, not their thoughts but their emotions. I don’t always sort out what it is because mostly I’m just bothered by it. Nama told me that she had to learn how to keep the energies straight. How to keep other people out. We both, however, are now interested in learning how to mmm train ourselves? To recognize our own energy but without isolating ourselves.
I know this probably sounds like crazy nonsense to a lot of you and a lot of people on blogs I read think that it is satanic or demonic or even just farse but I assure you…it is not exactly something that you want if you don’t have it. I think, even in just my one day of awareness of what I am that it is a gift from God. We all have to learn to use our gifts…I knew when I lived through my accident virtually okay that I was destined for something. Right now I feel…like the sun is in my stomach. Radiant.