What if I don’t want to get married? What if the thought of restricting my love energies to one person for the duration of our physical life is too daunting? I remember right before I met Deeds I had made peace that I was going to spend life as a single woman. With friends, and love, family and travel but no husband.
A few of my friends are right now obsessed with buying houses. I see it as futile, especially in this economy. I realize all the obvious reasons (sometimes renting cost more, houses mean more space/equity/creative freedom/etc). Truth is, I just think its another dream sold to us. Its a 6 figure shackle I’m not interested in. Recite all the benefits if you must, I’d still rather my freedom to move as I please. We all have our own thoughts.
What if I let my heart be my compass and not a tv commercial?
My mind races constantly, whirling around thoughts until something resonates and I put that thought to the side for safe keeping. If my heart knows it, God sent it. I always know what’s right. Right for me. When I’m honest, its easy. Sometimes the mind tries to reason but I want my heart to stand firm as the final word and decision maker. And we’ll see how this great masterpiece of life plays out.