I am not fluid, but I flow. I flow like the breeze through the trees rather than the stream through the earth. I do not take pieces of it with me, I do not smooth the rock that threatens my path, I simply pass through. It seems, though, that my gentle breeze is gaining momentum and that I might be gathering strength getting ready to make some change.
In our groups in class we had to go around and describe one another using an image or a metaphor. For one of my group members–one that, I might add, I marked as my opposite, my sand paper–I described her simply as Toph and begged her to look it up. She did. I knew she would.
But what it got me to thinking about was the episode, Bitter Work. Where Katara consoles Aang because he is having difficulty learning how to earthbend. Toph says to him, “if you want to move a rock, you have to be like a rock yourself.” That thought seems so yucky to me. Admirable for others, but for myself? It is completely my opposite. I get itches and urges in being too steady and predictable.
Aang: Maybe there’s another way. What if I came at the boulder from a different angle.
Toph: No! That’s the problem. You’ve got to stop thinking like an airbender. There’s no different angle, no clever solution, trickety-trick that’s going to move that rock. You’ve got to face it head on.
That’s just how it is sometimes. You have to face it head on because what else can you do? That’s where I am with my weight…as I sit here at 12:02am thinking about making a bowl of Frosted Flakes. But I digress…opposites. Is there a thing? Is it that these things that I see in my Group Member–Colonel Toph– are so different from me or is it that those are the parts of me that I do not want to accept?
What is light without darkness? They give each other meaning and so they are apart of one another. They are interconnected within one entity.
I just had a thought…while watching the commercial for The Lion King, this saying I saw on my cousin’s facebook…something like “if your presence in my life isn’t positive then your absence will not make a difference.” Very intentional that the thought came just then. I think about the person in my life well…the person who just willingly left my life that I just remembered that people never really leave you. If you are then you always will be. If you are (apart of my life) then you always will be. Just in a different way. That is to say, you don’t have to hold something longer than you need it. When it has outgrown its use or its welcome then let it go and keep only the memories as souvenirs.