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This is Where I Leave You
November 8, 2016
I did not expect to cry writing my last blog post on Sincerely Jess but here I am. Eyes full of tears, heart bursting with nostalgia. I grew up here. I remember sitting on the floor of the apartment that I shared with P2AD and writing around all the feelings I was full of at the … More This is Where I Leave You
Quixotic Wanderlust: The Neverending Journey
November 3, 2016
I stared at Frida so long my eyes began to blur. There in the dancing strokes, I could taste the painters mood. Red wine stains beneath the canvas and the smell of tobacco woven in the waves of the acrylic. I could smell the hair of his first lover, plumeria and sunshine; he went to … More Quixotic Wanderlust: The Neverending Journey
…the thing about poppers, husbands, and shitty jobs
November 1, 2016
There is something masochistic about indulging in an act that could kill you, for a moment of pleasure. I scolded a friend who had a scare with poppers. I warned my friend who was struggling with the idea of leaving her husband but loved the lifestyle he could afford them. I recited to myself as … More …the thing about poppers, husbands, and shitty jobs
Wild
October 4, 2016
Cheryl Strayd and Liz Gilbert wrote two of my very favorite stories. It started with an impetus. Liz laying on the bathroom floor acknowledging the gnawing inside of her that wanted out…of her marriage. Cheryl took to the Pacific Crest Trail in an effort to face her pain, walk her way back to herself. I … More Wild
Suicidal Ideation
September 27, 2016
I haven’t written in a while. Nothing pulled me to metaphorical pen and paper and begged to be articulated. The stories I had now felt shallow and superficial or more of the same. Really, as I just caught myself tracking my thoughts as they slowly became darker and twistier, things were not the same. They … More Suicidal Ideation
Balance Doubt and Obligation
August 26, 2016
You said it yourself that you’re courageous, is it courageous to quit? The words from my therapist echoed through me awakening several different emotions. Curiosity, doubt, defense, and anger. Was I quitting or was I acknowledging a limit? Maybe the two are varying sides of one coin. You are the one who has to live … More Balance Doubt and Obligation
Becoming Dr. Williams
August 8, 2016
The night before my dissertation defense, I laid in my bed crying enduring panic attack after panic attack. I had received a text message from Zachary who had been something like an Angelo Dundee during the process for me, “Breathe. Get it done”. In between reading comments and making changes I would massage my aching … More Becoming Dr. Williams
Making my peace with Ashley Graham
August 2, 2016
I do not personally know Ashley Graham. She does not know me and to my knowledge we do not have mutual friends on Facebook. To me, Ashley is a plus-sized model who has taken over 2016 as the face of the body positive movement. She has literally been everywhere, including the cover of Sports Illustrated. … More Making my peace with Ashley Graham
A Supposedly Straight Woman’s Process for Grieving after Orlando
June 21, 2016
My name is Jessica. I recently graduate with my doctoral degree so, in some spaces it is also likely that I am referred to as Doctor Williams. I am 5’9″ with an undercut and kinky, curly natural Black hair atop my head. I weigh somewhere between 250-350 lbs at any given time depending on what … More A Supposedly Straight Woman’s Process for Grieving after Orlando
Sincerely, Jess 